For the first time in a few years, my medications have changed.
I thought I was doing okay with all the stress, the pandemic, everything, but I was getting shorter and shorter tempered and melting down more and more frequently.
Then I had a Zoom meeting with my psych doctor. She’s easier to talk to over Zoom than in person, and I mentioned that I’d been hard on my husband lately.
She picked this apart and got all the information and decided I needed a new antidepressant. Lexapro.
I have Bipolar 1, rapid cycling, so we’re always a bit leery of adding an antidepressant because I can swing manic, although that hasn’t been a problem in the past.
I didn’t think it would make a difference, but, oh, it has.
I’m not melting down.
My temper has entirely disappeared.
I feel like I’ve been drowning and that I’ve finally gotten a breath of air.
I’m relaxing.
Laughing more.
And I feel more like myself than I have in so long that I can’t even measure it.
So, thank you to my doctor for calling me on my ‘I’m fine’ attitude because this has been a huge help!
“My temper has entirely disappeared.” I’m not sure the data supports this. – Edit: I may have left my website logged in on my dad’s computer… thanks, Dad.