Sound’s great, doesn’t it? *smile* If you’re thinking this sound scary, look at it this way: a mood disorder can only amplify a person’s existing personality. If they were nice before they got sick, they’ll be nicer now that they are. If they were a jerk, well, they’re just going to be an even bigger jerk. I wasn’t scary before I got sick, so why would I suddenly become scary now?
I was diagnosed Bipolar I when I was 15 when I had my first manic episode. I present as rapid cycling – about two weeks per swing. When I first became ill, I would swing multiple times in a day which was a nightmare. Fortunately, the current swing cycle gives me a lot more ‘down’ time where I’m not in one extreme or another.
Bipolar involves mood swings, and they can present as mania, hypomania, depression or mixed swings. I also have a great deal of free floating anxiety, and occasionally I will have mild bouts of paranoia.
And here’s the nice part of rapid cycling: no matter where I am in the swing cycle, I know it will only be a few days TOPS until I feel better again. That makes it, in my mind, far far easier to survive than the classic multi-month swing. Horridly depressed and suicidal? Well, I just have to live for three more days and I will be okay again. It’s predictable enough that it’s almost a benefit.
Posts relating to Bipolar:
“So I’m going to put out an unpopular opinion here. One of the biggest parts of maintaining relationships throughout my mood swings is taking responsibility for all the stupid things I do and say when manic and occasionally when depressed.”