UGH. I was doing SO WELL on the meds I was on, fairly stable, rarely swinging full manic and a livable amount of depression. But I made the mistake of mentioning, at my most recent psych appointment, that I was lactating from the Invega. My doctor immediately wanted to know for how long. Four years? … Continue reading Everything Was Stable So Time For New Medications: Let’s Talk About Weight Gain
Normally, my house's cleanliness is directly related to my level of mania or depression. If I'm depressed it looks like it was hit by a tornado. If I'm manic it's picked up at least and dishes done, if not really clean. I don't like cleaning. And the only time I can convince myself to do … Continue reading FlyLady and Cleaning My House
So my mother-in-law and I had an odd conversation this weekend while we were all having drinks, one that dragged my husband in. I'm not sure what started it, but we started talking about the difference between being Bipolar vs. Girl Crazy. My husband insists that this is the biggest way his mom and I … Continue reading Bipolar vs. Girl Crazy
You knew we wouldn't be able to make it through the holidays without triggering a mood swing, right? Stress, both good and bad, is a huge trigger for my swings, so of course I swing faster than normal during the holidays. So I'm taking the last few days of break to take care of myself … Continue reading Holiday Mood Swings
I love holidays, and I love spending time with family. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing bad about this. But holidays bring stress and stress makes me swing, and this time I swung down. Really down. Scarily down. Like, sitting on the floor and sobbing in all of it's ridiculous drama. Only it's not drama … Continue reading And With Holidays Comes Depression
So, as some folks may know, I have rapid-cycling Bipolar I. I spent several years on disability, but I've recently reentered the workforce and gotten off of disability. When I did this, I transitioned through the Division of Vocational Rehabilitation, and moved to a DVR Limited Term Employment position in May of 2016. In September, … Continue reading Bipolar and Working: Scheduling
(I know you may not agree!) I have rapid cycling Bipolar I, and my swings last upwards of two weeks, two and a half weeks, tops. My husband has depression, and he has had it for as long as I've known him. When I was a teenager and first became Bipolar, my swings started out … Continue reading Why Rapid Cycling Bipolar Is Easier Than Depression
It's no secret that depression often includes a lack of energy and general apathy. My house often reflects this. My husband cleans, but when I'm depressed I can barely dress, cook for myself, and attend work, much less do dishes and laundry. So, while the house isn't impossible, there's only so much my husband can … Continue reading The Biggest Difference Between Mania and Depression Is How Clean My House Is
I'm Bipolar. This is a fact of my existence, and it's something that severely messes with my perception of events. This especially becomes a problem when I have an argument with my husband. We rarely argue except for when I'm headsick... at which point my worldview becomes distorted. I don't remember facts clearly so much … Continue reading Fighting Fairly When Bipolar
(And you LOST ONE?!?) I had myself a mini-crisis yesterday. You see, I wear Silver Ring Splints daily. They look like this: And this: And I'm losing weight. And losing weight makes my fingers smaller. At some point yesterday, I lost THE MOST IMPORTANT splint, the pointer finger tip in my writing triad. You know, … Continue reading Those Splints Cost HOW MUCH?
